okienawa

arrrrrgggggh!

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 06:07:05 GMT

I can't sleep! I'm used to working two jobs and going to school. I was constantly working and very sleep deprived. I no longer have to work two jobs and have been done with school for some time. I have all of this excess energy and I can't sleep! I'm going nutz!

Just to give you an idea, I probably work more than a 40 hour week sometimes six days a week....still not enough!

Learning Japanese

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 23:17:46 GMT

Believe it or not, I am learning Japanese. Not just for kink, but for professional purposes primarily. Unfortunately, the research that I'd like to do deals with literature prior to WWII. Which sucks because the characters used are different, which means I'm going to have to also learn kanji among other things. I start formal instruction in the winter around January. I am hiring a private tutor.

Right now I am using books and language programs. I am taking two approaches: the memorize as many factoids as I can. From this method, I have learned to speak read and write the following: modern numbers 1-10, days of the week, months of the calendar year.

I am also taking a phonetic approach where I am learning all the basic sounds/syllabaries, from my understanding there are 46 basic sounds (lets say the alphabet). So what's happening is I am, for a lack of a better word, learning katakana to learn how to spell sound out the words. So when I see the characters for the syllabaries I will be able to sound out the words. Its kinda like learning how to spell them. Unfortunately if I learn how to do that, that doesn't mean I know the word meaning, I just can sound the word out. In order to understand the words, I also have to learn the characters. I guess the best way to explain it is that, just because I can pronounce and spell the word, doesn't mean I know what the word or idea means.

My goal is to be able to have a very rudimentary conversation, count monies, ask for directions and read signs by June. Wish me luck!

Amorphous

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 07:25:55 GMT

Amorphous

When I exhale into space
the words I cannot erase.
Into the aether they go
far away to the unknown.

White noise like lightning flash
followed by a thunderous crash.
Quelled by an empty space
The din tamed by nature’s grace

I hold an audience with the sky
I demand from it what is mine.
It gives me something in return.
It gives me something I can’t discern.

Faster than the speed of sound
ubiquitous it does surround.
Nebulous I understand
nothing I am just a man.

Are pursuits to me so meaningless?
Do I understand the meaning less?
Amorphous though the answer seems
when I exhale it seems so close to me.

And these words I can’t erase.
They are projected into space.
Into the aether they go
far away I do not know.

I see them so vividly
so bright they are blinding
They do have meaning to me
I wish the sky would answer me!

What would pornographers dream of?

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 07:17:23 GMT

Suzanne Vega's song "Pornographer's Dream" has me wondering about what pornographers dream of? How would people who produce what is called pornography look at women? Would they look at woman as objects or am I just stereotyping? Would they idolize them in such a way some people idolize The Madonna?"

Would they have tea and talk ethics? Take a walk in a garden filled with lilies? Go to a jazz club and eat angel hair pasta with scampi by candle light?

Never the less, makes me wonder since I have an increasing interest in photographing the women I tie and having the images published... here are the lyrics to the song and I have posted the video below. I will leave you to it :)

she's a pornographer's dream, he said.
I knew what he meant.
but it made me imagine: what kind of a dream
he would have, that hadn't been spent?

would he still dream of the thigh? of the flesh upon high?
what he saw so much of?
wouldn't he dream of the thing that he never
could quite get the touch of?

it's out of his hands, over his head
out of his reach, under this real life
hidden in veils, covered in silk
he's dreaming of what might be

out of his hands, over his head
out of his reach, under this real life
hidden in veils,
he's dreaming of mystery.

Bettie Page is still the rage
with her legs and leather;
she turns to tease the camera, and please us at home,
and we let her.

who's to know what she'll show of herself,
in what measure?
if what she reveals, or what she conceals,
is the key to our pleasure?

it's out of our hands, over our heads
out of our reach, under this real life
hidden in veils, covered in silk
we're dreaming of what might be

it's out of our hands, over our heads
out of our reach, under this real life
hidden in veils
we're dreaming of mystery.

she's a pornographer's dream, he said.
I knew what he meant.
but it made me imagine: what kind of a dream
he would have?

The Seemingly Impossible, Made Possible - Just Tell Me I Can't Do It

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 21:23:35 GMT

Inverted Florentine flogging was something I couldn't conceive of about 5 years ago. It did become a reality soon after, but I couldn't not perform this technique with any power. I dismissed it as a useless pursuit. Its pretty, but not functional. Yeah sure I could do it, but why? Just like any other skill left unused, you loose it. But I felt that I could do it still. UNTIL I tried doing it last Feb.

Now lets go on and clarify a few things before I expand this. I am not talking about a four count double figure 8, were the patterns make a 1-2-3-4 sound on impact. I'm talking about the six count where it makes a 1-2-3-(.5 second or less pause depending on how fast you are bringing your outside and inside swings around to recalibrate)4-5-6 sound on impact. Now try to do a six count with significant power and then try to do it using nothing but underhand strokes. Difficult, and difficult to do with significant power.

Back to the story, I was told that it wasn't possible, soooo that set me off. Not only did I relearn it, but I found a way to do it with moderate power. Now its just an issue of focus and control. I pride myself on being like a surgeon with floggers. But I have been concentrating on so much stuff as of late, that I have let my skills go. But they're back!

Now, I'm gonna re-visit that ever illusive 10-count technique, and the 8-count with twin double ended floggers.

Showing Mark Yu "The Night Life"

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 03:17:08 GMT

So I was wondering if a few people were interested in helping us show Mark Yu the night life/culture that OKC has to offer. I was thinking about opera, then I decided on ballet, then I decided on a cartoon marathon. All of those very worthwhile activities.

I finally settled with an oldie but a goodie, what about going to a nice old fashioned tittie bar. So if anyone is interested, please send me an email. If you have some suggestions please let me know.

When Friday 3/06/09
Where OKC
Time 9 ish

International Master Slave Contests

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 04:05:21 GMT

Who won? Inquiring minds wanna know. Guess I better start calling people

New Rope Group Starting in KCMO - Kinbaku_KCMO

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 02:12:14 GMT

I'm pleased to announce that another rope enthusiast group has started in the mid-western region. Kinbaku_KCMO will have its first meeting after the AHS social. The first topic will be "learning the ropes and getting to know each other". We plan to have meetings (rope days) quarterly and follow a similar education/meeting format as its sister group in Oklahoma City, Kinbaku_OKC. Speaking of which, I'd like to take a minute to inform you about the next event in OKC.

Mark Yu will be presenting the following classes in OKC:

Basic Bio-Mechanics for BDSM Players

Erotic Rope Domination (with a side of pain)

Partial Suspension Dynamic Play Techniques

The event will take place on March 7th, 2009 in Oklahoma City and for more information about the event or getting tickets to the event email MstrChewy@aol.com. There will be a play party after the event.

Rope Day in OKC 11/29/2008

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 20:26:43 GMT

Hey Everyone, just passing the info to you. I plan on coming down for this :)
For people who are members of the kinbaku-OKC group you can RSVP in the database section. If you are not a member then Why NOT????. You can send your RSVP to MstrChewy@aol.com. Directions to the venue will be given out after Chewy closes the RSVP list which will be a day or two the Rope Day. It is taking place in OKC. Start time is 2 PM. Date is Sat 11/29/2008. For those who do attend the contribution you make will include the play party for that evening. I believe the contribution for each person is $5.00.

BTW we are looking for a few photographers as well. Models, this may be a good opportunity for you to do some shots in some nice ropework.

Photographers and models please bring any paperwork or waivers that you may require to be signed to avoid any future hassles. And now on to the Press Release!

Hello all the time has come for us to have our first rope day although
I know the date isn't ideal it will be Nov 29. The day will start out
with a class over the ground work of decorative rope bondage followed
by a rope lounge where we can share ideas practice what we have
learned ask advise of others there and basically share with each other
our love of rope, then a break for those that want to go get something
to eat or if you want to stay there you can as this will be a chance
for photographers and rope models to to do a little shooting so they
can have some bondage stuff to add to there portfolio following all
this will be party so we can all have fun and do what we do best. We
are asking for donations to help with the cost of putting on the day
and the party basically to cover the space rental, please if you would
like snack and drinks please bring them.

Chewy

Gonna Start Writing Again

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 16:54:15 GMT

Not really sure how I got so involved into promoting stuff, but it snowballed and it happened. Oh yeah, this three (almost four) year plunge happened because I wanted to do the title circuit one more time. I had every full intention of returning, but became involved with other projects that can and would continue, as the opportunities are readily available.

I plan on starting my monthly column back in October after ILS/b weekend. I'm not sure of the focus or if there will be a focus.

Take care!

Aether/The Floating World

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 05:09:41 GMT

Aether

Where does it start?

This air we breathe

The who we are, what we are…

Our origin

There is always an “in the beginning”

A primordial ooze

A maelstrom

Chaos taking form and we emerge

Like Venus

Coming in from the tide

Or is it just unbearable pain?

Never the less, we are here

We reach for the intangible

That floats through an aether of intangibles

We reach for the sky

There is a reason and we search

But where do we start?

This air we breath

That floats through an aether of intangibles

We reach to touch the sky

Aether

She whispers in the wind

Something that I recognize but don’t understand

I forget it every morning and it haunts me every night

I wake up mouthing it, I wake up mouthing it

Sickly sweet words that move me to tears

I am barely awake and she nears

Reach out to embrace and she leaves

Cold sweat on my face she moves me to tears

I don’t want to lie down again

I don’t want to go

She dances around on the edge

Of my memory and speaks to me

She is unmerciful with these haunting words

Like Aether she permeates and I mouth the words

I reach for them again these ephemeral words

She ravages me again with these elusive words

She whispers in the wind

Sickly sweet words that move me to tears

I don’t want to lie down again

She is unmerciful with these haunting words

The Floating World

The floating world isn’t real, my friend.

Like that picture on that stand.

Peer at it closely and marvel at the beauty;

take in what you see.

Picture perfect with each stroke

inspires beauty and the slightest hope

of a better place to be;

take in what you see.

Don’t worry if you get lost

in the dancing lovers star crossed.

It’s okay to believe in what they see;

take in what you see.

Colors of the sky above reflecting

in the water below reveals the story.

Don’t look away yet, please;

take in what you see.

“Muss es sein?” You ask.

“Es muss sein.” Is my riposte.

Don’t forget its imaginary;

take in what you see.

Leather Luau 8/30/08

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 20:29:08 GMT

Leather Luau,

Fantasy Competition

and a Pansexual Play Party

When: Saturday August 30th 2008 from 6PM to 2AM

6-9 PM Luau

Where: Xpressions

Prizes: $ 50.00 cash for the best fantasy

Auction/Items for Drawing - Some items will be live auctioned and some will be silent auctioned

Two packages for International LeatherSir, boy and Community Bootblack Competition

in San Francisco, Ca during Columbus Day Weekend ($278.00 value), Cane and paddle,

$ 10, $20, $30 dollar gas card drawing, Mini DVD Player Drawing, cane and paddle set, bottle of wine,

Autographed books by Tim Brough, quick bondage ties, leather chaps (worn by International LeatherSir 2007,

Olivier Pratt), Leather Picture Frame, Leather Scented Candles, gift certificate for a custom made flogger, set of scotch glasses,

duct tape, Monte Cristo Cigars, Crystal Candy Dish, Autographed International LeatherSir/boy picture, candle warmer,

Urban Hankies, cum towels, leather bad boy paddle

Featuring: Lyndsey VanLusty, South Central Leather Woman 2008

David Howell, South Central Leather Sir 2008

boy matt, South Central Leather boy 2008

x-ina, South Central Boot Black 2008

Luau is $15.00 per plate, play party $5.00 per person

Brought to you by, Flesh and Fantasy (South Central Leather Contests) and The House of the Rainbow Triquetra, Asylume Noir

RSVP with Terrell

fleshandfantasy@sbcglobal.ne

photo shoots pic

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 15:15:10 GMT

Just a few of the pics we did, let me know what you think, I'll keep em up for one week.

	Samples of the photo shoot

New Photo Shoot Pics

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 05:51:51 GMT

http://fetlife.com/users/5592 Check it out and tell me what you think I did the rigging and the rope

Where you can see me

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 16:59:46 GMT

6/27-29 Wichita, KS co-teaching an all day flogging intensive with Casey. Beginning, Intermediate and Advanced - the class will cover flogging to florentining. Twisted Temptations

7/13 OKC Presenting a bondage class and doing a rope suspension demoOKC Kink

7/19 Teaching a class on Deep Tissue Bruising in Tulsa TDS

7/23 Teaching an online class about Old Guard and Protocol for Spirit's submissive academy

8/22 Teaching Deep Tissue Bruising and Balancing What Was Made Unbalanced: Coping with Extreme BDSM situations in Austin, TX GWNN Bash

10/09-10/13 Teaching Double Flogging and Florentining and Balancing What Was Made Unbalanced: Coping With Extreme BDSM Situations at International LeatherSir/boy and Community Bootblack Weekend.

Going to Wichita

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 01:05:24 GMT

A few of us are going to Wichita this upcoming weekend. We are looking for great bars, pool halls and strip clubs (about 10-15 of us). If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know!

Fuck the Politics, Let's Create Something

Mon, 26 May 2008 01:12:39 GMT

It amazes me how the subtle niceties, the civility and the politeness masks the most hostile attacks and treachery committed through protocol and politicking. The double speak, ambiguity, inferences and trying to "get" what people are saying is taxing emotionally and intellectually. We wade the sea of shit disguised as compliments and admiration in order to come close to the truth. But no one wants to get close to shit, just like no one wants to get close to bullshitters.

But yet we live among shit and bullshitters, but in truth do we have a choice. Are they parasitic, latching on like leeches to live vicariously off of you so they can say that they lived and then when they drink their fill and leave you virtually lifeless and ill, they move on to another living host.

I know I am painting a pretty dismal picture, but it is, unfortunately true, from my perspective. Avoiding shit and bullshit is just as taxing as being leeched on.

But why do either?

Why not just create by doing those things that we love. Let the people admire, criticize and judge if they want. As long as they give me the opportunity to live and love. And in reality, what does it matter in the big picture? We live and we will eventually pass away. But it is how well we have lived and loved that matters. A life lived well is worth more than just living. Its just as difficult to live with integrity, not because you want to, but because how people may understand and approve.

So fuck em...

Create something and make something beautiful. Value things on your terms but not someone else's.

This would be my advice to someone new coming into the leather community.

Sneak Peek at the Classes for SCLC

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 03:42:07 GMT

South Central Leather Contests will have classes that are geared specifically towards the leather titleholders and leather titleholder hopefuls.

We are concerned with producing the best possible contestant to effectively represent the community. We want them to be well informed about the global leather community. We also want them to have the skills to compete in a national and international contest.

Simply put, we want to give the South Central leather and fetish community the best damned representative possible. We are announcing the following classes to be taught:

1.   How to deliver a speech, and have effective stage presence
2.   How to construct and execute a winning fantasy
3.   The nuts and bolts of the leather contest circuit
4.   Bootblacking for the community and beyond

The classes will also be open to all who are interested please send me an email for more information!

Take care!

advertise with south central leather contests!

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 00:47:02 GMT

if you are interested in placing an ad for the South Central Leather Contests please email me!!!!

Bauhaus "Go Away White" Slips in Quietly

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 02:25:49 GMT

Yeah, so I am just now getting around to listening to it. Hell, I've been a fan of Bauhaus since 1983. I've kinda kept up with what Peter Murphy, Daniel Ash, David J. and Kevin Haskins has been up to, but ya know life kinda distracts you. I'm going to listen to it a few times before I let you know what I think.

I remember watching Daniel Ash DJ at this club in Hollywood called Gold Finger every weekend, back in 1996 ish, it was a hole in the wall on Yucca and if anyone of you knows Hollywood, you know that is not one of the nicest areas and to park under a fuckin street light.

Just waiting on that new Cure CD it WAS supposed to be out in Oct according to Billboard, but they are touring!

Exhaling Parts 4, 3, 2, 1

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 22:12:21 GMT

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Exhaling: Soul Kiss

Exhaling: Soul Kiss

Have you ever had one?
A soul kiss...
breathing the ether
of unbridled passion.
The warmth
of two bodies moving
feverishly.
Searching
for a place to hold on to
tighter
because you don't want to let go
of whatever it is that makes you
feel like this.
Cotton candy sweet
kisses
connect while two search
for a meaning.
Why, how
ooh fuck who cares.
You tingle
viscerally
and exhale...

Hell-Thirty White Hot and White Noise - Exhaling: Once again, I find myself envying Louis Carrol's talent for being able to make gibberish sound like poetry. His words or lack thereof pull me away from reality, yet in reality I know that sleep deprivation is the true cause. I'd like to think that'd I'd be swept away by such language, yet the end result would be either confusion or a false sense of understanding - the end result is the same. It is the same language that we tend to breath out, transmit emotion, the need to be understood, and context. We exhale, creating sounds, forming syllables, constructing words into thoughts and we assume what it is expelled is understood. It seems Carrol is able to convey his exact meaning with the "Jabberwocky". As listeners we seem to get caught up in the words themselves - pieces of them - not even a full breath. As speakers, we build brick walls with our words, hiding our true feelings and thoughts flinging untruths as if they were sickly sweet honey. However, when we tell the truth, there are not enough words in any vocabulary that could effectively convey what we intend. Exhaling seems to refract as opposed to reflect what it is we want to say. Do we ever listen for context, history or emotion? Do we speak understanding the weight of what we want to say knowing the its accuracy should hold the weight? Unfortunately we generally speak with white noise not understanding the consequences that are generally white hot. We call this truth, yet is it just plain 'ol gibberish spoken at hell-thirty in the morning - and we sit there as listeners - smile - and take it as the gospel and we inhale.

Lewis Carroll (1832-1898)
from Through the Looking Glass
Jabberwocky
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.
"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"
He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought–
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.
And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came wiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!
One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.
"And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!"
He chortled in his joy.
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

Exhaling - Open

Regurgitating
Purging existential angst
Exhaling, I'm free

Tales From the Zona Roja "Exhaling Again": No one exists
as I loose myself into her eyes
dark and smokey
They cloud my thoughts
and confuse me.
No one exists
as I loose myself into her motion
I became her bitch
and I know they would not understand.
No one exists
as I loose myself in my fantasy
That could be my reality
and this confuses me.
No one exists
as my hands wander
I begin to wonder.
I exhale deeply and she lets me.

No one exists
as I step outside of myself
I step away from every expectation
and I let go.
No one exists
as I shed this skin
Societies gift and curse
it allows me to say what I am and am not.
No one exists
as her eyes lighten up
I see something
and she let's me in.
No one exists
as she smiles
I don't return it
She's mine
Until the song is over.

and once again I exhale...

Exhaling: I often wonder when one speaks; about the history, context, emotion that carries in their voices. It bothers me that we may not be really listening, understanding and feeling the words spoken. When we exhale, is it selfishly explaining our wants and needs? When we listen, is it selfishly hearing what we want to hear and discarding those words that we don't find appealing or apply?

Sometimes when my lovers have spoken to me in the past I moved so close to them in order to inhale every breath and listened to every word selfishly. Some speaking in their native tongues that were foreign to me. Sometimes when my lovers speak, I am repulsed and yet I move closer and closer as they exhale.

YES!

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 23:03:04 GMT

My new rope rope arrived today. Two sets of black hemp rope from bindme.nl It has that hemp smell to it, but its pretty soft and looks great. I'm going to use it exclusively with the new model I'm workng with. We're going to Austin next week and I'm going to learn some stuff from Mark Yu.

YAY!

Hell's Kitchen

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 05:11:58 GMT

Man, I love that show...its vicious and oh so Machiavellian!

psst guess what?

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 02:51:35 GMT

I'm a Ph.D.

Checking out for a bit

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 03:05:27 GMT

gotta defend my dissertation on wed, so I'm checking out for a bit